The errand runs and the packing are finally almost finished, and now I am sitting here realizing that in two days I will be on a plane headed for Costa Rica to do Spanish language school for a month! It is hard to believe that this day is finally here, because I have thought about it and talked about it for so long. It is exciting and nerve-racking thinking about everything. Sometimes I get nervous that I won't measure up.
Questions/fears that cross my mind are ... "What if I don't pick up Spanish as people say I will?" ... "What if I am not used effectively by the Lord?" ... "What if I don't experience any kind of maturity and growth while I am gone?"... and the questions could go on and on. However, what I am realizing is that these questions and fears of mine are not rooted in Christ, but rather, they stem from my own insecurities and issues that I must give up to God. I must give up control of my life and my relationships (which I don't really have anyway) to God, because He is the one I want running the show anyway.
I am physically prepared, but I ask you to pray with me that I will become more spiritually and emotionally prepared for what I am about to do. This trip cannot be about me, but I know that in the midst of difficulties I am prone to focus on myself. Be praying that I have a broken heart and spirit, and that there always remains in me a fear of the Lord! We are to love God, but we are also supposed to have a healthy fear and respect of Him. Pray for cultural sensitivity and adeptness. I want to bless those I am around, not burden them with my presence. Also, pray that I don't hurt my witness due to hunger or fatigue. I know that request sounds silly, but for those of you who have been around me when I am either or both of those, you know it can be an issue.
My hope for this blog is to once a week or so to give you an update about what all is happening down in Costa Rica, as well as, post some pictures so that you can get a better understanding of what I am talking about.
Thank you all for your love and support as I try to obediently step out in faith and go. May we every morning come before the Lord and ask Him to make us sensitive to listening to Him and then follow what He tells us!
